Sabotage 2: Knee cappin’ yourself

       As I thought more about it, there is another way that I like to self sabotage myself; and that is in asking for help.

       I really dislike asking for help. Actually I effin’ hate it.  I’m getting better at it, but part of me still resists it.  I know where it stems from and I’ve been working on that too, but it’s difficult.  I don’t like being a burden to others. I don’t like that I can’t do or figure things out on my own.  I tend to come from a place of survival in a sense that if I were to truly be on my own, I’m going to need to figure out a way to be self sufficient.  We are a social creature however and asking and being apart of a community is how we tend to thrive.

         So, yeah.  I’m gonna leave it at that.