Diving deeper

         I’ll start off by saying that I’m not someone that tends to analyze things, at least not to the degree we talk about in class. I go by feeling, I’m a feeler.  If something feels wrong I’ll ask why, and then try whatever it is that I’m doing a few times to see where I’m feeling what’s wrong.  Once that is identified I will explore what is feeling off.  Then I will seek the advice of someone more experienced than me and either confirm what I found, or get some insights into what else is going on.  I don’t tend to analyze the other way, because I tend to over-analyze and then get frustrated.  Feeling keeps me in my body, thinking or rather overthinking takes me out of my body.

         Having said all of that, I have been diving deeper into some things.  Not necessarily because they feel bad and don’t get me wrong, I know I still have a lot of work ahead, but because I want a deeper understanding of why.  What has sparked this?  Teaching.  Getting a group in-front of me and showing them a form.  As I teach I begin to generate my own questions about why I do some of the things that I do.  Sometimes I don’t give everything that much thought. There are some things that I do because we just do them.  That doesn’t mean I don’t try to make them feel the best they can, but sometimes a technique is a technique to me and it doesn’t need further analyzing.  I am starting to wonder about a few techniques in certain areas though.  I know sometimes the technique doesn’t necessarily have an application attached to it, but a purpose, and that is what I want more answers about.  When a technique has a possible applicable component, then that is easy enough to think of the ways I can utilize it, but when there is a technique in a form that doesn’t necessarily have an application like that, it makes me wonder what its purpose really is.  Picking up what I’m putting down?

          I also enjoy the questions that are being brought up to me, because it makes me think more about how and why I do things.  It makes me realize I have a lot more knowledge than I knew I had, just never verbalized.  Sometimes it shows me that there is a gap in my knowledge, and now it becomes a learning opportunity for me too.  I’m excited by the opportunities helping out and teaching has provided me, and in turn I want to be the best for those students.  Kung Fu is awesome and I just want to share in that awesomeness with others.