I fail a lot
“I fail a lot”, is a loaded statement and one that I recognize has a lot of weight behind it. I chose “fail” knowing the importance of the words we use. Failing itself isn’t final, it is more of an opportunity. What put me on this train of thought was my relationships, my own emotional behaviours, and my personal goals. With that is the kind of person I want to be for my partner and Cillian. I know I fall short at times. My emotions get the better of me and I don’t conduct myself in the manner that I would like. I have baggage like everyone else that silently dictates actions, behaviours, and responses. For the most part I am aware of these, but every once in a while a trigger occurs where it bypasses straight to my traumas and emotional baggage and I’m not my best self. I’m constantly working on these aspects of my self and getting better at regulating. I strive for healthy rela...